Haunting Me

Okay so, I woke up this morning and was going to do my normal ritual of wake up, get energy drink, check texts/email/myspace, when I came across an interesting e-mail from my dad. It was a forwarded message from my old landlord from Spokane, Washington. He is a slum lord. He is a horrible person. This old house I was staying in for a few months when I was up there, was built in 1902. It had old carpet, scratched old floors, etc. Now I moved out, and that landlord is trying to fucking get all my family money because apparently I caused all this damage. He wants like almost $4,000. I think this is stupid. I am very pissed. He said that the smell of my dogs poop was absorbed into the basement CEMENT. Someone please tell me if its possible or not for cement to absorb odors. I think thats bullshit. On top of all this, there was mold down there too. Anyway, my dad and I are probably going to have to take this to court, in which case, I would have to go. I guess. I dont know what to do, im freaking out, starting school soon, I feel horrible because my dad has to go through all of this, and its just stupid. I want it to be over. Its almost November and I moved out of there in SEPTEMBER. Before my birthday! I hate him.

Cristina, my old roommate, fucked me over bigtime. She owes my dad over 2,500 bucks, and she changed her phone number and e-mail so we cant get ahold of her. She is the biggest bitch I know. She never paid rent while I was there, she never helped pay for any of the ultilities, she always ate my food. She used to be my best friend, now she is on my A list of revenge. Seriously. I want to take her down. Shes such a bitch. Shes also dating a sex offender (still). Little does she know, my new boyfriends brother still lives up in Spokane. We plan on having him (if he can) personally delievering a Demand Notice for her to pay my dad back, or he will take her to court and settle it in Small Claims Court. That way we can take Mr. Slumlord to court as well, and hopefully pay with Cristinas money. Yep. Life is great. Fucking AWESOME.

Im starting school on November 30th and I am kind of scared. I dont know how its gonna go and I dont know what to do. EEeekk. I hope I pass it okay. I have to take out 4 ear piercings and my nose ring (and put in a retainer on that one) and my tongue (if I cant hide it) to go to school. I also HAVE to wear long sleeves so that I can cover up all of my damn tattoos. That might be a pain in the ass, but hopefully not.

I might be getting this Nanny job, interview tomorrow. Cover up tattoos and piercings for that too, apparently. I dont think they will hire me. I keep doubting myself. I guess thats because my life is going into the shithole lately. I am starting to regret shit that I have done in my past. And my policy is NO REGRETS. But my life would of been so much better if I hadnt of moved to Spokane. I would have a job, I would be in school, I would living in Santee with my friends. WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING. I am never doing anything that special for a fucking male ever again. For fucks sake.

I am trying to plan this trip to Knotts Scary Farm. With my close friends. Hopefully it will happen. However, im pretty broke. I just got my credit card back, but I am on my last leg with that, so I dont want to push it.

Blood and Guts.

My new boyfriend is going to be a medic working out of a firefighter station. I am a bit scared, I have to admit, because he is one of those guys who doesnt talk really unless you are with them. He does, but its only one word answers.

Im just a bit scared because he will be working 12 hour days from 6am-730pm. When he gets off, I will be in school. I get out of school at 10, but since its in Chula Vista, I probably wont be home and ready and whatnot until about 11pm. At that time, he will want to go to sleep so he can get up at 6am. I dont know. The only time I can spend with him is during the day, which he is working. On his days off...sure...but thats like 2 a week. And what happenes when I finally get a job? I am looking for one...I need one horribly...and like...on his days off I will be working and I just dont see the time we will get to spend with one another....and I think this is going to put an extremely hard stress on our relationship, which I dont think I can handle right now. With school and money problems and all this other bullshit going on. :( I wish he hadnt of taken a stupid job like that. He is only 17.

New Life = More Up and Downs

Okay so I am back in San Diego, CA. La Mesa to be exact. Renting out a bedroom in a 3 bedroom 2 bathroom house. I share my bathroom with the guy named Josh, and he is cool. Except for the fact that we cant actually use the bathroom because it is clogged so I have to shower / pee at my boyfriends house. Yes, boyfriend :D I got a new one.

Living here is pretty alright, I dont like it nor do I dislike it. I wish my animals could roam about the house, but they cant, for now. I will be moving again in December or January maybe into an apartment with my boyfriend and gay friend, so that will be a lot better. I cant wait for that.

Im sick right now. My boyfriend Jeffrey got me sick. I have a runny nose, fever, cough, vomiting blood, tiredness, mucas, etc. I have that dry lung rattling cough. It sucks. And half the time the mucas gags me and then I have to vomit, and earlier, I threw up a bunch of dark blood. No wonder why my stomach has been hurting? Maybe I should go to the doctor soon. At least I dont have a headache!!!

I have to go to Planned Parenthood tomorrow to get tested, just to make sure its gone. Kyle gave me Chlamidia. Asshole. I already got treated, and it should be gone today, but my boyfriend and I want to make sure before we have sex again. Doesnt that suck? Great first impression on a new boyfriend :: Hi Sorry but I have you an STD!!! Thats my life man, thats my life. Fun shit.

Jeffrey is amazing though. He is 17, which sucks, but I dont care. Age is only a number. He is a fun, crazy, guy who knows when to be cute and cuddley. His dad is an asshole, but we are working through it. He has the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen, and he is so protective over me. Its cute. I love him. I already got his name tattooed on me (call me stupid...but its inside a moon so I can cover it up if needed). :D He is really good at sex too for a first timer. Haha.