Mister Fucking Brown.

Alright so, I am pretty much at the edge of the cliff about to jump. If you get what I am saying.

I break up with him twice and feel bad because he says he as apparently changed, so I give him a second chance. Like I always do. Because I am a fucking idiot. So I he automatically assumes were boyfriend and girlfriend again, but I explain to him that I want to wait to see if he really has changed. I also have a crush on someone else and I want to see which one will work out better in the end, so I decided to stay single for a little while. So when I explain this to him he gets all sad, but tells me he wont let me down.

So far, he has pissed me off for the following reasons:

1. Making fun of one of my close friends because he thinks shes ugly. (I told him to stop but he kept going on and on and on about how high her cheekbones were, and when I told him she was my friend, he started talking even louder).

2. He has ignored me all day today (and Ive been having a bad day) and when I asked my best friend what he was doing (they live next to each other) he tells me that Jeff is outside SMOKING. On a break. Still not talking to me. And then he just texted me and I have been upset all day waiting and waiting and waiting for him to talk to me, and he assumes I am mad because of him, and like turns into a total sick. Go fucking figure, he hasnt changed.

3. He came over to my house last night to spend some time with me and spent a half an hour on the porch talking to his brother about a stupid fucking buisness they want to open. I tried telling him it bothered me and to get off the phone, but he didnt listen and completely ignored me.

4. After he got off the phone, he came back into my room, only to TEXT his brother every MINUTE until I got pissed and decided to leave his house around midnight. (He wanted to go back to his place for awhile).

5. He promised he would spend the night and he didnt.

6. He lied to me about what he was doing today, also.

Thats just a few examples, point is, I am really unsure if I want to go out with him. Make him my boyfriend again.

He has gotten into HUGE arguements with my friends, he told me he wanted to smash one of my friends heads in and break his jaw, he constantly tells me how much he hates my animals, he lives like a fucking pig, he treats me like shit more than half the time (and the other half I dont know if he is just faking it), I have lost ALL interest in moving in with him, etc. And the worst part is, I have his name tattooed on me. 1, I regret it. 2, he doesnt appriciate it. I know I have Richtors name on me too, but at least he appriciated it, and he taught me a lot about life. He wasnt a complete asshole at the time.

I dont know what else to say, Im crying, hurt, and upset.
I will write more later, maybe.

Happy Friday the 13th.