I am losing my lover. He no longer talks to me. He is too busy. I cannot think. Slipping back down into the hole of real depression. I keep trying to figure if it is worth it, if he is worth all this pain, and I cannot figure it out. I dont know why. I dont know what to do. I dont believe he even wants to date me anymore. I need help. I need to see a psycho person....I need to get on anti depressants or something...I cant go on like this....
My best friend likes me and is chasing my tail trying to get with me, but I am definately NOT wanting that. Eww. Disgusting. Not attracted to him at all. I dont want to be with him in that way, AT ALL. And he stares at me and fucking thinks hes going to get with me. WHY? BECAUSE ERIC AND I ARENT DATING! I DONT KNOW WHY HE CANT JUST ASK ME OUT ALREADY AND !!!!
*sobs*
He doesnt want me, theres no way he wants me. He cant want me. He would talk to me if he wanted me, right?
I cant do this. I am going to go insane. I am always second best. Always. I cant do it anymore. I cant.
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You can do it. You will be fine. Do you have any religious practices??
ReplyDeleteDo you know the cause of your depression? That is always a 1st step....
Do you have close friends that are not just wanting to f*** you?